Thursday, January 18, 2007

in the backyard

Here's how I spent some of my time at home.
My Uncle built a rink in his backyard and we went out -grandpa too- and played a little shinny on the ice under a blue Alberta sky.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Decision Time

Every year at this time we ALTs (Assistant Language Teachers) have to make a decision to stay and re-contract for one more year, or to move on to (hopefully) greener pastures. This is the 4th time I've had the deadline looming over me.

In the past I have had mixed feelings about this process. I've signed the official document "NO" and had intentions of leaving, only to change my mind and basically beg to stay in my job for another year. The year after that, the decision was easier as I was in love with my job and my life. Then I had the option to stay another year but I in order to do it I had to switch positions -change is good~ (in moderation). Now I have to decide whether or not to finish the full 5 years as JET ALT or get outta dodge.

Part of the issue is that I'm not sure what I want to do IF is don't stay. Staying is the easy part! I know what I'll be doing, what I can do and what I want to do here. If I go...well, of course there are options, but making a commitment to any of them is not appealing at the moment.

What will one more year here be for me? After next year I will HAVE to end my time as a JET. Will I want to stay longer? Will I finally want to go home or anywhere else for that matter.

Ugh. Where is my crystal ball?

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Far From Home

Being here means I can't be there.

At times of happiness it's a struggle.

At times of sadness and grief it's unbearable.

I wish I could be there right now.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Back home

My computer is sick and I have limited internet access so updates will be sporadic at best.

I'm back home in Nyuzen, happy to be in my own space again after a wonderful trip home for the holidays.

Will try to have pictures up soon.

Just wanted everyone to know I'm safe and sound and have already been to the mountains on my new board.

Photos to come.